I never realise how time flies.. It's been almost a year in Newcastle and it felt like 2 days... Gone are the days of awkwardness and trying to fit in.. I'm kind of enjoying the life here now that i think i fit in nicely... Is not like i don miss home is juz that I really enjoy working with the nice and crazy ppl here...

I'm definitely going to miss having lunch with everyone and i'm gonna miss making fun of ppl at work... Dave, Paul, Seales, Curry, Patel, Harry , Jack, Bo, Phil, lindsay and everyone else. I'm gonna miss the time where i complain about my boss to them and all the silly jokes. In fact i really like my team... Is just perfect to work with... (Except the pressure from my boss of cuz)

I gonna miss the freedom as well when i can go out drinking like almost every week and have my own private space where nobody else is gonna nag at me... I can definitely get used to that kind of life... Gonna miss exploring the country as well and those nice memories of all the ppl that used to live in the house and also the crazy french girls now.. lol.

I won mind staying for a bit longer but i bet if i did, I'll left with almost no friends in Singapore... Y can't it be combined together then... Haiz.

Life is always about choosing, isn't it...

Juz gonna enjoy every moment for the next 1 month or so with everyone...

Really wonder what it means though.. What can be so significant to be part of a history then? Something that shapes you as a person? Something that impact you so much that you change your thinking? Or something that you can never forget? Does a good/bad memory matters then? Will it change the history?

Even short memories can play an important part of your life.. Like those short 13 days in Singapore, technically only 10.. that make me realise how comforting it is to be back home.. =) Not that everything is perfect or anything, is juz the feeling that you can call everyone else up when you want to, or text them to see how they are coping...

Of cuz there are also bad memories like those here.. LOL. LIke hectic days when you need to work like mad, need to face ppl that you can't face, need to put on brave front even though is so painful internally, trying to have fun and laugh with everyone but you juz feel hollow inside..

So which one which? How to make a good history for yourself then?

Nothing much though.. Is juz some random rant.. So bitter water to spill... LOL

BTW the departures is really a nice movie... "The last purchase for you is made by someone", how ironic..lol. Mayb for shopaholic like me, i will get my own coffin instead... HAHAHA..

I don understand y is there always so many obstacle juz to get back home.. First the swine flu and now this... It seems like there is no way of having my little escape...

I know i'm not the most organise person in the world but i don think picking up on my crosses and ticks will make me better in organising.. Y do you need everything in your way? Now that i have so many meeting with you, they think i'm the mole for the management team... WTH~~~ I'm not sure i'm really a chemist now or juz an assistant to work exactly your way and your format..

Just hope that A.S will be a better guidance and i can understand him better.At the same time i won wanna juz stick to A.S and L.H 24/7... . And stop pissing A.C off so that i can work better with him.. I still wanna keep the good working relationship.. He may not be the best superior but he is definitely somebody i can be comfortable to discuss work  in the company... And i like the group of crazy ppl... Don destroy everything!!

GIVE US A BREAK!! I hope tomorro meeting will be ace and you don be at my back 24/7... Hope i can go do my work on my own and own project...

and most importantly let me return home soon...

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

This is the central of Newcastle and the pic on the left is the tyne bridge and on the right is the millennium bridge. And if you notice, the millennium bridge is slanted.. Quite cool. Apparently the sing guy is living juz at the bank of the tyne river and he got this nice view everyday.. And he is sharing the penthous with another 2 person only.. Nearer to work somemore.. Irritating.. lol.

Tat's me.. On the millennium bridge.. Don really like to take photo lah.. see how awkward i am.. lol


Here's some nice pic i took over the weekend at the coast and the countryside.. Really nice ride there loh.. But tat's where A had his car exhaust pipe bracket came off cuz of a hole in the road.. He's been damn pissed after tat.. HAHAHA.

The coast... (don be deceived by the pic.. Is SUPER COLD... ice everywhere and i almost can't walk)


 
I'm really faking the smile in this one cuz i'm wasn't standing very steady at all.. Is icing ground and i have absolutely no grip in my boots at all.. I was practically being drag around at that area.. LOL.

The countryside.. (At the border near Scotland)

  

  

And a little peek on the pissed driver since that day.. I think that's the last pic he smiling liao.. LOL.



I spend like 3 hours to finish uploading the fotos.. Nearly dead cuz of the stupid connection.. And i'm hungry now... Dunno wat to eat for lunch... =(

 
Living room... Trying my hardest to get the full view of it. Is quite big though not very obvious here.
Tat's where i normally go online and eat and watch tv.. Now that they arrive, I moved back to my room liao.. =(

Here's a peek of the kitchen on the first floor as well..


Is really a big kitchen for all the girls... and there is a washing area behind the kitchen. Everything u need you will get.. Well almost.. I'm just lack of a scissors.. lol.

And my room... Ta da!!
  

   

The room is actually quite big.. As seen on the 1st pic, the left door is the entrance, follow by a storage room (or a dressing room which is quite big but no mirrors), then the bathroom. And there is actually a recently added TV... Is really like a mini-suite now.. LOL. And my favourite corner will of cuz be the ones with all the fotos and prezzies (at the left of the table).. I know lah.. it look very messy.. but that's the only table top i got... Can't be help mah.. lol.

View i took outside of my room.. Is snowing if you see carefully...



And the lovely sunset




In summary, there are 6 bedrooms, one kitchen, one living room, one dining room, 4 or 5 storage rooms, one washing area, 2 common toilet and one personal toilet for myself~~ LOL. Quite a big place really.. Hopefully it will be nice to stay in too with the rest.. *cross fingers*

Haven been blogging for ages!!!

Basically no mood, too busy and all sort of other reason. Is really a big change to be here and is really shocking that i'm been here for like close to a month now... Did anyone notice it?

The weather here is really not nice.. Been gloomy all the time and i'm really scare of snow now. It's nice to have fun for awhile but it really gets into the way and the coldness is really BUAY TAHAN~~~ LOL.
And tat's not the worst. The most horrible part is what comes after it. The icing on the footpath is SCARY... I nearly fell like zillion of times and none of the shoes will have grip at all. Hope yesterday horrible heavy snow is the last of it all.

It was quite hard to fit in here cuz everything is so different. The language especially when they got their own jody accent. (I bet that is how ppl felt when they speak to singaporean.. lol) Anyway having difficulty fitting into my dept, I'm really kind of a loner right now.. HAIZ. Have been complaining to everyone about it and i'm still stuck in the factory for another week. The ppl in factory are really nice and down to earth but the timing is really HORRIBLE. Really not suitable for lazy ppl like me.Really hope that when i go back to R&D, things will pick up from there. Haven been in the office for like 3 weeks.. Think they must have forgotten about my existence already. And the office politics is unbelievable~~~ But have to say that the work is the only thing that keep me up i guess. I'm kind of glad that i'm interested in paint cuz it's the only thing to keep me going.

Anyway  for those who didn't know, I got this temporary housemate for 2 weeks and we got along pretty well i guess. A is from London and is here awhile for attachment. Basically he doesn't work for my company and he's favourite saying is "I literally cannot be sack.." Is really annoying to hear that.. But after awhile you kind of get used to his rubbish. .lol. He really comes in handy especially cuz he got a car and he is not local, we can like visit places during the weekend. I get free rides to work and back home, free ice cream, ready made tea, companion to drink with and more alcohol.. LOL. Is also interesting to see how other ppl is looking at the company  and i kind of know more based on his perspective. Cuz apparently anyone who know his company well, treat him like a VIP and he had been given shitty treatment in R&D (which is my dept) and he is like complaining to me. I dunno to cry or to laugh.. LOL.

But every good thing has to go to an end i guess. He left the house like few hours ago...All the convenience is gone now and all the inconvenience is here. The chinese girls arrived. Starting of the dark ages soon and i could sense it juz 5 mins they entered the house. HAIZ. Since there won be anymore fun, I must well concentrate on catching on everyone else's pace at work.

Pic of my house and the country side A and me went will be uploaded tomorro. Having a tough night... HAIZ.

Wonder why my mood was so accurately sang out by John... haha. May Continuum accompany me through this transition in becoming a wiser and better person.

"If you are determined to leave, i will not stand in your way".. No matter how much i'm feeling hurt, i guess is juz part and parcel of life bah. Is a decision/path we both have to choose to move on. Since you already did, I shldn't be running in circles too.


New Year Resolution:

1) And since I've sacrifice my 6 months of savings and this relationship, I will jia you and not screw up my training there.
2) I will be back with more confident
3) Stay in contact with all those dear friends and family and get treat from them when i come back (*hint hint)
4) Able to understand British accent.. LOL. (tell you all, this is so impt loh.. Juz received a call from UK and i nearly died understanding them.. lol)
5) Be back with more silly stories to tell.. hahah


JIA YOU JOANNA!!! 

Been grumbling quite alot whole lot. But i'm still thankful that i still can do this once in a while and there will sometimes be ppl reading it.. Thankful that 2008 is going to end and that many of us will be stepping into the new stage. Thankful that there so many ppl that to always to share fun, laughter, sorrow, worry and joy.

Hope everyone will survive the tough times together and remember to remember me if haven been hearing from me for awhile. Then i can still share my grumbles and my funny moments.. lol. Have fun in 2009 everyone!!










P.S. Thankful for you - JL,  to be in my life story... Both pain and joy you bring will be deeply noted in heart and hopefully there's more joy next yr.. LOL.  =)